About Me
From Addiction to Freedom: My Testimony of Christ’s Deliverance
For 35 years, I was trapped in a cycle of pornography addiction that left me feeling ashamed, defeated, and hopeless. I genuinely wanted to be free, but no matter how many times I repented, prayed, or tried to resist, I always found myself falling back into the same pattern. I carried the weight of guilt daily, believing the lie that I was too far gone, that God must be disappointed in me, and that freedom was out of reach.
I thought if I could just try harder, pray more, or strengthen my self-control, I could break free. But the harder I fought, the more I realized I couldn’t win this battle in my own strength. The enemy used my failures against me, whispering that I would never change. I felt isolated in my struggle, afraid to be honest with anyone, and terrified of being seen as a fraud in my faith.
But God had not abandoned me. In my darkest moments, He was still calling me to Himself, patiently waiting for me to let go of my own strength and surrender completely to Him.
I thought if I could just try harder, pray more, or strengthen my self-control, I could break free. But the harder I fought, the more I realized I couldn’t win this battle in my own strength. The enemy used my failures against me, whispering that I would never change. I felt isolated in my struggle, afraid to be honest with anyone, and terrified of being seen as a fraud in my faith.
But God had not abandoned me. In my darkest moments, He was still calling me to Himself, patiently waiting for me to let go of my own strength and surrender completely to Him.
The Moment Everything Changed
The turning point in my journey came when I finally reached the end of myself. I remember the moment clearly—I was exhausted, broken, and desperate for real change. For the first time, instead of making another promise to "do better," I fell to my knees and cried out to Jesus in complete surrender.
I finally understood that this wasn’t about me trying to be "good enough" for God or earning His forgiveness. Christ had already paid the price for my freedom. I had been trying to fight a spiritual battle with human strength, but victory was only possible through Jesus.
His words in Matthew 11:30 became real to me: “For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” That night, I gave up trying to carry the burden alone and placed it entirely in His hands. In that moment, Jesus stepped in, and He set me completely free.
Walking in Freedom
From that day forward, the chains of addiction were broken. The guilt that had weighed me down for decades was lifted. My heart and mind were renewed, and for the first time in my life, I truly believed what Jesus said: “So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed” (John 8:36).
This freedom wasn’t something I achieved; it was a gift from God, given through His grace alone. I experienced a transformation that I never thought possible—not because I suddenly became stronger, but because I finally let Christ be my strength.
Of course, the journey didn’t end there. Walking in freedom meant renewing my mind daily, filling my heart with God’s truth instead of the lies that had kept me in bondage for so long. Romans 12:2 became my foundation: “Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.”
I made a commitment to guard my eyes and my thoughts, choosing to dwell on things that honor God. When temptation arose, I learned to immediately take those thoughts captive (2 Corinthians 10:5), praying and trusting God for strength.
I also surrounded myself with accountability—a community of believers who supported me and reminded me of God’s grace when I felt weak. I realized that true freedom is not just about resisting temptation, but about living in the light (1 John 1:7). No longer did I have to hide in shame; I could walk openly and honestly in the grace of God.
This freedom wasn’t something I achieved; it was a gift from God, given through His grace alone. I experienced a transformation that I never thought possible—not because I suddenly became stronger, but because I finally let Christ be my strength.
Of course, the journey didn’t end there. Walking in freedom meant renewing my mind daily, filling my heart with God’s truth instead of the lies that had kept me in bondage for so long. Romans 12:2 became my foundation: “Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.”
I made a commitment to guard my eyes and my thoughts, choosing to dwell on things that honor God. When temptation arose, I learned to immediately take those thoughts captive (2 Corinthians 10:5), praying and trusting God for strength.
I also surrounded myself with accountability—a community of believers who supported me and reminded me of God’s grace when I felt weak. I realized that true freedom is not just about resisting temptation, but about living in the light (1 John 1:7). No longer did I have to hide in shame; I could walk openly and honestly in the grace of God.
The Birth of FightLust.com
Six years ago, God put it on my heart to create FightLust.com—a place where men and women struggling with pornography and sexual addiction can find hope, healing, and freedom through Christ.
This ministry is not about judgment or shame—it’s about sharing the life-changing power of Jesus. I know what it feels like to be trapped in addiction, to feel unworthy and hopeless. But I also know the power of God’s love to restore, redeem, and set captives free. What He did for me, He can do for you.
Every day, I receive emails from people all over the world who are struggling, searching for hope, and in need of prayer. I want you to know that you are not alone. If you need prayer, encouragement, or someone to talk to, I invite you to reach out. You can email me directly, or use the live chat feature on FightLust.com. We are here to walk alongside you, to pray with you, and to provide resources that can help you find the same freedom that Christ has given me.
Through FightLust.com, my prayer is that anyone struggling with this battle will know that freedom is possible. You don’t have to stay stuck. God’s grace is greater than your sin, and His love is stronger than your shame.
If you’re feeling hopeless, remember this: “Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus” (Romans 8:1). You are not beyond God’s redemption. He is ready and willing to set you free—just as He did for me.
You don’t have to fight alone. With God’s help and the support of a community that understands, you can break free from addiction and walk in the abundant life that Jesus has promised (John 10:10).
Let’s take this journey together, one step at a time.
This ministry is not about judgment or shame—it’s about sharing the life-changing power of Jesus. I know what it feels like to be trapped in addiction, to feel unworthy and hopeless. But I also know the power of God’s love to restore, redeem, and set captives free. What He did for me, He can do for you.
Every day, I receive emails from people all over the world who are struggling, searching for hope, and in need of prayer. I want you to know that you are not alone. If you need prayer, encouragement, or someone to talk to, I invite you to reach out. You can email me directly, or use the live chat feature on FightLust.com. We are here to walk alongside you, to pray with you, and to provide resources that can help you find the same freedom that Christ has given me.
Through FightLust.com, my prayer is that anyone struggling with this battle will know that freedom is possible. You don’t have to stay stuck. God’s grace is greater than your sin, and His love is stronger than your shame.
If you’re feeling hopeless, remember this: “Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus” (Romans 8:1). You are not beyond God’s redemption. He is ready and willing to set you free—just as He did for me.
You don’t have to fight alone. With God’s help and the support of a community that understands, you can break free from addiction and walk in the abundant life that Jesus has promised (John 10:10).
Let’s take this journey together, one step at a time.
Scripture References:
Matthew 11:30 – “For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”John 8:36 – “So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed.”Romans 12:2 – “Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.”2 Corinthians 10:5 – “We take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.”1 John 1:7 – “But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, purifies us from all sin.”Romans 8:1 – “Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.”John 10:10 – “The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.”